A couple of nights ago I was heavy burdened in my heart to write to you all about the way I've been choosing to live my life. I allowed myself to discount every form of conviction from the Lord and it left me feeling completely bereft and numb. I replaced the joy of living in the moment with the false notion of living a life through social media. I'm confessing this to God and to myself because I've been living a life that's been elusive and fabricated. The Internet has no longer served me but instead I found myself serving it. I made it my God. I worshipped it. The first thing I wanted to do in the morning was check my instagram and Facebook accounts. I created an idol within my heart that only destroyed me in the end. It's so hard when you're faced with a culture that's predominately made up of social media. The truth is, technology has made us dumber. We cannot read a deep, challenging book anymore because it requires way too much thinking. Our lingo has become so colloquial that our words don't even articulate what we are trying to say. When I pray to God, sometimes I don't even remember what I said because my attention span lasts no longer than five seconds. All this technology and social media has left us incoherent. Its dehumanizing us and its a scary thought but its the truth. What was once an event out of our day has become a nuisance in someone's else's. We cant live in the moment anymore. What a life to bemoan! But with all this said, I know that through it all God has given us hearts to feel, and a mind to think. I just don't want to see my life trying to live up to a standard that is of this world. I have deep within myself a desire which nothing in this world can satisfy, thus I know with full assurance that I was made for another world. Heaven is my home. I want to live every second of my life for Christ and upon the riches of knowing Christ. Lord help me!